When you have dogs you know that one day you will have to face that dreary day that we all hate to talk about. The day we all pretend will never happen. The day we expect to happen when they are old and grey and are 'ready' and when you are 'ready as you can be', but the truth is we are never ready. It's the day that we say goodbye to our most loyal companion and have to carry on the rest of our life without them. The day we watch them take their very last breath, completely unaware of the concept of death. Or maybe I'm wrong. Maybe they understand death more then we do and that's why they don't grieve like we grieve and are so relaxed during death. Either way, it doesn't make my heart any more or less lost.
Today Audrey's paw print came in the mail and I am reliving the grief I have been trying to tuck away.
Today Audrey's paw print came in the mail and I am reliving the grief I have been trying to tuck away.
It's been 11 days since Audrey passed and not a day goes by that I don't think about her. I miss her every day. Part of me wonders if the reason why I can carry on without her is that deep down I'm waiting for her to come back home, even though she wont.
"When I get to heaven the first thing I am going to do is find you... The second thing I'm going to do is never let you go again."
"When I get to heaven the first thing I am going to do is find you... The second thing I'm going to do is never let you go again."
I did the only thing that I knew might help my pain of loosing Audrey and Zoey. I symbol of my love for them and for all my dog and other pets. My love for them is unconditional and eternal.
I'm usually pretty optimistic about things in life. I always try to find the silver lining. But this has been a real challenge for me because even when I see the silver lining, the selfish part of me doesn't care and wishes I could go back in time and change things so I could have my girls back.
I miss you girls so much.
I love you.
I miss you girls so much.
I love you.
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